Wednesday, June 1, 2011

When Feelings are OK…{Change Part I}

I know it’s not always wise to do something because "you feel like it.” Using feelings as a guide can get us into big trouble. But sometimes there are exceptions to that rule. For instance, do you ever feel like its time for a change? I certainly do.

When the weather recently started to warm up, I decided our apartment home décor needed to include cool colors so I moved all of our warm colored art and throw pillows into the guest room and brought all of our cool colored art and throw pillows into the living room. It was a free mini home make over. I just needed a change. When it was done I felt happy.

 Sometimes I simply change my mind.

I try to be consistent about the big things but I feel like it’s okay to change my mind about little things every once in a while. Like changing my favorite ice cream from mint chocolate chip to cookies and cream (and yet somehow it always changes back to mint chocolate chip).

Today I felt like changing my blog’s appearance. This will be the third change since I started blogging about a month and a half ago. I don’t know why it happened this time. I just felt like it and I was in a creative mood. Before I new it, my blog had a whole new design! (I hope you like it.)

In spite of all my random spurts of change, you might be surprised to learn that I love consistency. I don’t mind the little things changing. But when big things start to change, fear of the unknown can grow into a big ol' monster. I know good and well that when fear enters the room my feelings are not reliable. 

The hubby and I have some serious change staring us in the face right about now. We’re preparing to move to California in August to take part in a fairly new church plant/revitalization in a sweet, little inner city neighborhood. The only thing I think I know for sure is that my husband will be a pastor there. Beyond that, everything is a big blurry question mark. 

What will my role be? Who will be my new friends? How will I say goodbye to our Tennessee family? How will we make ends meet? I could sit in the “how’s” and the “what if’s” all day but I won’t. It’s too easy to let fear creep in and shock me with its ugly head when I least expect it. So instead I'm choosing that oh-so-familiar peace that passes understanding. I'm deadbolt shutting the doorway of doubt and I'm opening wide the door of obedience. Sometimes we just gotta make that choice. Not because we feel like it. But because it's right and it reaps incredible rewards that we cannot yet see. 

Today I’m practicing change in the little things and hopefully the big changes won’t seem so daunting. I’m so thankful for God’s Spirit that leads the way and offers peace.

Are you facing any change? Do you ever fear the unknown? If so, how do you overcome? 

More on change to come…

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  1. great post Monique. Curt is cool, but you're way cooler in my book. :-) praying God continues to reveal himself through the wind of change. - marcus

  2. Girl, I totally know what you mean!
    There are some changes that I'm totally cool with and I can handle them and everything is okay, but then there's other changes that happen that scare me more than words can say.
    I guess the biggest thing for me is just knowing that I know that I know that God is in control. Above all, He's my Provider. He is my constant even when the winds are thrashing all around me.
    When I focus completely on God, I have this assurance in my spirit that I can do all things through Christ - even face the biggest changes of my entire life.
    I love you. I'm proud of you, and I'm praying for you in this next season.


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